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Writing Ruminations

Well, hello everyone.  I feel like a stranger around here these days.  I've tried to keep caught up but it seems by the time I do, days have gone by and I can't think of anything to say.  Not had a lot of time for writing, either, or even going online.  I try and read most of your posts, even if I don't respond to them.

I've been writing again, a little bit anyway, which is great.  For a while there I've hardly been able to string two words together.  I realized the other day that I haven't updated Could Be You since January.  It doesn't seem like it's been that long!

An old original story of mine has taken over my brain again, one which was finished years ago but because I started writing it in 1995, has never been completed to my satisfaction.  I've re-written it a number of times and abandoned the most recent attempt, and now I realize why I have always simultaneously loved and hated it.  I love the concept and the characters, but the story itself was the problem.  I had only ever just reworked the scenes I conjured up as a teenager, and though the style of writing has improved, the story itself remains juvenile.

So I'm completely rewriting it.  Same basic concept, same characters (for the most part), but with completely different scenes and a more adult feel to it.  Some of the events will remain the same but retold in a better way.  At least that is my intention.  The nearly 4500 word first draft of the first chapter is done, and for the first time, I truly like it.

I also  have 1700 words written on Could Be You, chapter 13.  I'm still debating whether to post that little section by itself just to have something, or if I want to combine a couple of smaller parts to move the story along faster.  I guess I will see how quickly the rest of things take shape.  The story is approaching its conclusion and I'm kind of just ready to be finished with it.

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lostboy_lj
May. 14th, 2011 09:22 pm (UTC)
I feel you on this, abby. I think almost everyone who writes anything worth reading is their own toughest critic, and that the hardest thing in the world is probably to re-read something we started writing long ago without cringing or feeling weirdly estranged from it.

I think part of it is that we're constantly losing touch with who we are in any given moment in "the past", so after a period of time passes we approach our own work as slightly different readers, and usually as harsher ones. It seems like it takes a great deal of energy to keep up a pace of writing without taking a break where we become detached from it, and start being critical of it.

That's happened to me lots of times, where I've started to write a novel with a lot of enthusiasm, and after it falls by the wayside for various reasons I feel like I have to re-write the entire thing. I've heard lots similar stories from other writers. Maybe this is actually a good thing in the long run? Whatever the case, it's certainly a tough thing.

I think that trying to spin yarns on paper is weird work in general, because I am, trying to please both myself at the time and a potential audience who I can't even see and might not be there. Best of luck with this process, and know that there are a lot of invisible peers out here rooting for you!
abelina
May. 14th, 2011 09:27 pm (UTC)
You've pretty much put into words how I feel about this, lostboy. I've started and abandoned many things over the years but somehow I've never been able to let this particular one go. I thought, a few years ago, that it was finally over, that there wasn't anything else I could possibly do with it--and that was true. That incarnation of it has exceeded its life expectancy. This newer one I think might actually turn out to be something worth reading.

Thanks for your support!
dampersnspoons
May. 15th, 2011 03:00 pm (UTC)
You know where to send that chapter when it's done! :D

Can't wait!
abelina
May. 15th, 2011 03:44 pm (UTC)
Yes, I know where to send it. I have this super awesome beta friend person who rocks my socks, and I have deprived her of fic for too long! Soon, I'm hoping! But we'll see how the words behave for me.
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